20.Cosmar sau realitate?

Dr amintirile m-au napadit si pe mine.Daca Sam ar mai fost iubitul meu peste 5 zile am fi aniversat 7 ani de relatie.Inconstient,degetele mi s-au inclestat pe bancheta.Nu vroiam sa petrec ziua ce avea sa vina singura.Singuratatea ma speria.Simtindu-mi starea,Jasper a trimis un val de calmitate peste mine.Aveam nevoie unul de celalat ,desi uram sa recunosc asta.


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Timp de 2 zile,linistea a domnit in masina.Decat muzica de la radio se auzea.Stresul,oboseala si lipsa de ocupatie m-au facut sa dorm ore intregi.Un vis m-a facut sa ma trezesc tipand.
-Leah,ce s-a intamplat?au zis Emmett si Jasper in acelasi timp.
Frana pusa de Emmett m-a proiectat cu capul in scaunul lui Jasper.
-Un cosmar,dar realizez ca e cruda realitate.Si condu si tu mai prudent ,am zis frecandu-mi fruntea.Sau vrei sa scapi de mine?
-Un sut in fund si zbori.......Nu trebuie sa fac asa mare efort.
Ma holbam la el cu gura cascata fara sa-mi cred urechilor!
Jasper s-a uitat la mine si i-a zis ceva lui Emmett de nu am putut auzi
-Glumesc!Glumesc!
S-au dat jos amandoi si intr-o secunda ai si schimbat locurile.
Acum Jasper conducea.Nu era asa imprudent ca fratele sau,dar conducea mai atent,desi tot repede.
Oare mama era ingrijorata?Am cautat prin buzunare micul telefon pa care Charlie il cumparase mamei in caz de urgenta.Dar mi-am amintit ca il uitasem pe pat.
Inainte sa pot procesa,Jasper a scos un mic telefon argintiu din buzunar si mi l-a intins,fara sa-si ia ochii de la drum.Am clipit,dar l-am luat.
Am format numarul,dar nimeni nu mi-a raspuns.Mai bine,pentru ca sigur mama l-ar fi cerut si pe Seth la telefon si trebuia sa ii spun adevarul.
I-am lasat mesaj ca suntem bine si ca in curand ne vom intoarce.Si ca ne distram.Halal distractie cu 2 vampiri!
I-am intins telefonul fara sa ii multumesc.La radio incepuse melodia blondei cu par ondulat si cizme de cowboy al carei nume imi scapa.Nu puteam face nimic decat sa ascult versurile in linistea mormantala din masina.


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Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me

Were you just kidding?
'cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened, please tell me?

'cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide
Like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure

So here's everything coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, I don't think so

Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything
Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything

'cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always

Oh, I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, you said forever and always I don't thïnk so yeah''



Inima mi s-a strans de durere si nu am mai putut respira.Mi-am scos capul pe fereastra si am clipit furioasa sa alung lacrimile .Mana mi s-a inclestat pe bancheta.Sam imi spusese exact aceleasi cuvinte -PENTRU TOTDEAUNA!

Pentru totdeauna...La naiba!Brbatii nu ar trebui sa spuna asta decat daca chiar isi doresc asta.
Pentru totdeauna....Pentru totdeauna...